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You stole my confidence; you took it like you owned it, you smothered it in neglect, and you threw it in the black hole of your absence.

You used my patience; you smoked it like a drug, you took advantage of my presence, you evaporated us into nothing.

You decapitated our relationship; you cut it at the root, you shook out all the good, and threw the body into your subconscious.

You cut up my affections; you stored them in your selfishness, and turned them to dust.

You broke my heart. You took it in your hands, you tore it into two, it turned cold as ice, and you shattered it across my future with you.

You shocked me to the core, a surreality I long to never feel again. The abundance of my tears was enough to drown me, and suffocate me into an eternal river of agony –– that my memories of 'us' will float upon.

You deceived me beyond repair, I thought you would hold me through the hard times, instead you trampled on my pride, you flattened my hope, you destroyed the love I had for you, kiss by kiss, touch by touch, moment by moment.

You threw us away, like it was nothing but a mess. You crawled back, only to show you're nothing but a boy, who doesn't know what he wants. Nothing but a child too scared to face a woman, strong enough to have held you through the toughest of times, strong enough to have taken your shit, because she was mistakenly thinking it was worth it.

© Rocio Belinda Mendez
When it hurts, write it out.
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FoolishLamb Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
This is amazing. I related to this completely. Thank you for such a powerful and hard-hitting spoken word poem.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
You're welcome, and thank you for reading me. This poem was very emotional for me when I wrote it, felt great to let it all out. 
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FoolishLamb Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I think you should write one about recovery or even hope after such a traumatic (as it can only be described as such LOL!) experience with that human being in your life. 

It would really, in my opinion, complete this. When I finished reading it, I felt the story or the words shouldn't have ended there..As though there was more to your poem than just the bitter way he'd made you feel. I would love reading a continuation piece.  It's up to you of course, just a suggestion :)
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
hehe ohh I have, you can see it through my work, here's a couple that show a dramatic emotional shift from one day to the next, if you're interested.

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day after

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I've written a lot on the subject lately too, you can see it in "displace" "proliferation" "i'm back"

thanks for reading me :) I appreciate it! x
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KawaiiShootingStar Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014
This is amazing! I really like it~ ^^ Your writing is beautiful... <3
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014
oh thank you so much xx
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SeraiFog Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013  Student General Artist
Agreed! When it hurts, write it out! and this was bloody well written out!
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013
Thank you :) thanks for reading lovely, I appreciate it x
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Jewel-Firefly Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013
Wonderfully crafted. I like "the black hole of your absence," evaporated, dust -- among the effective metaphors for a toxic relationship. And it's so true that boys don't know what they want, even when they're men. Anyway, incredible writing - thanks for posting it!
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013
oh thank u so much. You words mean a lot :)
thank u 4 reading :) I am glad you liked it !! xx
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hunterofthedark Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you.
thank you for writing out what slowly creeps up in my mind ...
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
>.< ahhh, my pleasure?
Sorry you feel this way :/
thank u for reading :) x
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hunterofthedark Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Yeah, sorry for all who have to go through it. But I guess, there has to be darkness, so one knows to enjoy the sun. :)
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
Exactly.. there is a quote, that I absolutely love.
"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain"
isn't that beautiful and full of truth.
it is Khalil Gibran x
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hunterofthedark Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow, that is a meaningful sentence ... I like it very much.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
:) it is
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Zombifyme Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
Going through the same thing right now... Sorry to hear someone else is going through it too...
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
Sorry you are going through that. It is fading away.. but there are always those moments that are extremely sad.. this was one I had to let out. It will pass, everyone will say the same thing... but there comes a day you realise.. it is not worth the pain. Thank u for reading, I hope u liked it x
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Zombifyme Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
I did. You feel better okay?
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
:) you too x
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DressphereMasterYuna Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Touching,sad,beautiful~~
Very nice done :3
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
Thank you ^^ :) x
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Kagomemax8 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Nice poem and words said well. =)
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
:) Thank u
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Kagomemax8 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome
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Narcaholic Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Student
Very well written! :heart:
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
thanks so much :)
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Fundippopotamus Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Couldn'ta said it better myself.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
:) x
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DrAgOnSfLy006 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I think I needed this 6 months ago...that last part is what hurts most
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
This was my 6 months ago.. I also wrote then, but last night it just needed to come out. thanks so much for reading :) I hope u are feeling better now? x
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DrAgOnSfLy006 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yeah feeling better now =) A new love works wonders. It can heal the hurt. One has to remember that it is always a give and take. The problems occur when one takes too much and gives nothing in return so that the others effort was for nothing. My situation has changed; now I feel free =D
I once wrote a 12 page letter to my ex, it feels so good writing everything down. And You? feel better now that it's out?
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
ah :) I agree.
I felt a lot better, the 2nd time around, we had broken up.. which was horrible, traumatic, scary.. most of the feelings I described in this ^^ then he came back into my life and like a fool I let him, I was still very cautious and I guess I was just holding onto hope because I was too scared to let go, when even I, wasn't happy. Just wanted the comfort of familiarity. A few months back, I cut all ties, for sure, and I thought it would hurt just as much or more as the first time.. turns out I felt happy, extremely relieved.. which was unexpected, but yeah I am well :) of course it is sad to think back on certain things, but thats life. I hope to meet someone who deserves me as much as I do them.
:) I am glad u have found someone, and very glad you feel free, that is the best feeling !! :)
Take care lovely x
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wendystrucked Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
Perfect.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
>.< eeek thanku
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X12-1992 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is the type of man i never want to be.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
mm >.< thank u for reading xx
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X12-1992 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
no problem btw you are very beautiful
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
oh.. thank you kindly :$ x
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Adonael Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Powerful and angry words. Well done for expressing it.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
thanks so much. Yeah it is pretty angry, although I cried all the way through, so maybe the sadness has finally turned to anger. Thank u for reading :) x
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Adonael Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Anger is a active form of sadness. Glad you got some of it out of your system though.

No worries :)

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SeaLover143 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's sad how much I can relate to this. You literally wrote out everything I have felt for the past few months. I had no clue how to write it out myself, but I feel like you did it perfectly.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
aw im sorry lovely, I don't wish that feeling upon anyone else, it was very, very tough. I am so happy that you connected with this though, this is why I write, so I can express something in me, that is bound to be in others also. I hope you feel better really soon, it usually happens from one day to the next.. takecare & smile, Rocio xx Oh and thanks for reading :)
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EHB Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I like the flow. It's very readable, almost lyrical. Don't know if you've imagined this set to music but it might be a good idea. Love the free verse scheme yet how liberal you are with internal rhyme. The descriptive pattern of each stanza complements the ones that preceded it makes a nice unified whole. Sad feelings are well done and tangible, not repetitive.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
Thank you so much for your comment. Mm it was spoken word, I guess, there was a definite rhythm I wanted to portray, to accent certain words or sentences.
Yeah the sadness was there, and it wrote it out for me, really.
Thank you so much for reading, I appreciate it, and your words x
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Spirit-Link Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Student Writer
So much like how I've felt. Amazing, thank you.
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
ahhh. When people say this about something I have created, It makes me so happy!! but when they say this about something that I created due to pain, hurt, and despair, it makes me sad. Thank you for reading, and I hope that time has passed for you..mostly. :) I appreciate your time n words x
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NewAgeArtist000 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
Brilliant piece full of raw emotion. And I can say for sure you're not alone in feeling this way, been there myself. But you know what they say, "Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like nobody is watching" :P and above all else, us true hearts need to hold on hope and find our kindred spirit. Where ever they may be hiding :P
Keep up the good work :D :heart:
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rociobelindamendez Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
Thank u for your beautiful comment :) It made me smile.
I agree completely.. this was a hard time for me, and it is in the past.. but certain moments are sad, and instead of ignoring it, I decided to write it all out, just incase others could relate :) looks like they did, & I am so happy >.<
mmm yes, definitely. Love is perpetual.

Thank u for reading xx
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